It's that time again, our 5th time.

I knew in my heart it would happen, but I've always held on to some hope that maybe just maybe it won't. I secretly hoped that he would get skipped this time around. Well I got a text from him on Friday, November 18th that I was right. Orders came down and he's the only one to send. You would think by now I got this, it's not knew to me and some may think it gets easier. But no, I'm sorry it doesn't. It only gets harder the older your children get. They start to realize what is going on, why daddy isn't home, why he hasn't been for a long time. What do you say to a five year old when asked those questions? Our two year old won't know where he's gone but she will notice he isn't there and she will ask in her own little way too. I can't even explain to them without crying. As of now we have less than a month before he leaves us for the next 6 months. Yes that means he will be missing Christmas, New Years, his birthday, my birthday, Valentines Day, and Easter. This will not be the first time he has missed those special important dates. We've missed four of our birthdays, but hey, I can at least say he hasn't missed our daughters, which for that I am thankful. One of the worst parts is the not knowing when exactly he's leaving, we just sit and wait. There is a possibility it will be pushed back a couple weeks, so he may be home for Christmas, which would be nice. Just have to wait for the word now...